I want to share three truths about myself with you today:
(1.) I’m horrible at making decisions for myself. I’m constantly weighing the “what-I f’s” which hold me back from making quick decisions. I’m a deep-thinker which can be good, but a lot of times it can cause unnecessary fear.
(2.) Confidence is a daily struggle. I genuinely have to work on it. I’m hyper aware of my insecurities and have to call myself out on a regular basis to fight through it and say “I’m enough” to myself. Sounds silly, right? This is why clothes are so important to me because I realize how they impact my confidence. My whole mission for Randomosity 740 is to help my followers feel good about themselves by inspiring them to think outside the box for themselves.
(3.) I often feel like I’m not a good wife or mother. I work full-time and have extra-curricular activities such as my blog. I wish there was more time in the day so I don’t feel like I’m neglecting my family. That’s why you’ll see my daughter with me in some of my pictures for my blog. When she’s not at school I’ll have her join me during shoots so she can watch me go through the process of chasing my dreams for my blog. I just pray I’m not teaching her something else by accident such as vanity. I want her to always be true to herself and not compare herself to others. As for my husband, he’s an amazing supporter of what I’m doing but there are times he has to remind me to be present when it’s family time because I’ll work on a blogpost thinking I can do it quickly. With working a retail schedule I try to schedule my days off when both of them are off school and work too. So I don’t really have other times to post and write without interfering with my time with them. I’ve been getting better but I have a long way to go.
I’m constantly working on myself and it will forever be a work in progress. The only thing I can do is give it my best and not be too hard on myself. So if I can share anything else with you it’s to be nice to yourself and remember that no one is perfect. Don’t be too critical of others including yourself. I’ve been reading articles about our “highlight reels” on social media and the impact it can have on our emotions. Always remember you’re only seeing pictures that people want you to see. Everyone is battling through something in life. Some just don’t air out their laundry on social media.
Your Faithful Dreamer,